It recently occurred to me I haven't ever shared the personal side of my journey into BioEnergetic assessments. I was born with spina bifida. I live with a decent amount of chronic pain. Some difficulty in walking. I tire more easy than others. I have balance issues, and issues with bladder and bowels. I spent my life growing up living on daily antibiotics to prevent infection of the bladder and kidneys. I self cath since the age of 9. I wasn't supposed to have children.
But God blessed me with two healthy babies. They are now 18 and 20 and the joy of my life.
But let's get real for a minute.
Pregnancy was difficult. H-A-R-D!
And I was exhausted. Back then I had headaches every.single.day. Bed-ridden headaches.
And then I had this baby who at 17 months became my worst nightmare. Temper tantrums, kicking, screaming, slapping. Morning till night. If you are a parent of one of "those" kids you will know exactly what I mean, and I want you to not only finish reading my story, but I want you to know there is hope, so please read more about her story and our journey with her in the link labeled “Megan's Story”.
As if I wasn't tired enough, I found was pregnant again about the time the nightmare was unfolding with my daughter (Megan). So I was 25, with a newborn, a physical disability and an out-of-control toddler. I went to the Dr and requested my hormone levels be checked and was sent home because everything was normal. I was wishing I could just die everyday. I had little to no short term memory. Total exhaustion. Mood swings. Chronic kidney infections. More fatigue than I thought possible, but alas I kept going. After all, everything medically kept coming up "normal." When my son was 2 years old I got pregnant again which ended in a miscarriage. And I bottomed out more.
Now I had a four year old with massive temper tantrums. And a two year old with seemingly chronic ear infections and colds. Between the three of us we were at the Dr all the time it seemed.
Finally enough was enough and I started researching options. I didn't know what the answer was for any of us but I considered myself an educated woman and knew there had to be answers for us all. Somewhere. Somehow.
That journey led me to our first BioEnergetic Assessment.
It was scary because at the time my husband was making maybe $14 an hour and I was not working (was so sick and tired I don't think I could have even if I wanted to, I would have been fired for calling in sick all the time).
The scans were back then (16 years ago) over $100 each PLUS supplements so believe me when I say it was a financial strain to take this journey.
But my family took a leap of faith into the unknown abyss of natural health because nothing we were doing medically was working and we were paying thousands and thousands and thousands of dollars every year in medical expenses and Dr visits and medications and this was just not a life I wanted to live. Not for me. Not for my children.
The day of my personal first BioEnergetic Assessment I learned that medical tests are wrong 50% of the time. And the truth was my hormones were BOTTOMED out! It was not all in my head. I wasn't spiritually "away" from God as some in my church had made me question. There was a real reason I felt tired and slightly insane and out of balance. It is when I learned that we are energetic beings as much as we are biological beings and that energetically we see changes before biochemical changes will ever show up on a lab. (The Dr was right from his paradigm and training, but he wasn't aware that he should be aware of more....)
In spite of the very desperate financial crunch our family faced on one income and three out of four of us needing not only supplements but the increase in cost in changing the way the family ate, we decided what we truly could NOT afford to do was to keep going the direction we were headed in.
I started getting help immediately to balance my hormones. I also got hope that day of those first assessments that a change in diet could be a step in the right direction for my children so I went home and literally threw out anything that was processed, box, frozen, microwavable, etc. My husband about died because I had already done the weekly grocery shopping (and now I needed more money that wasn't in the budget), but I could not, NOT, take this opportunity. If I had any chance I could give my children a better version of their beyond-exhausted mom who could barely get out of bed, they deserved it. And my children deserved a better life than that of sickly kids. I HAD to commit. Other things in the budget would have to move down the priority list. Every excuse of poor eating had no more room in our life. I had to take the helm and steer the ship.
Let me tell you. I KNOW the struggle is real (not only financially) but getting a 2 year old and 4 year old to eat veggies who were used to ramen, hot dogs, mac n cheese, pizza, etc..... the struggle is real! But let me tell you. God made you the parent for a reason! That day I stood up and laid down the new law of the land. And I did myself a favor (without realizing it at the time) because there was nothing to argue about through the tears of "I don't want that, I want macaroni" because there was no macaroni in the house. There were no chips. There were no more hot dogs. I didn't have to negotiate, take one bite of this and you can have that. I merely had to hold my ground. "When you are hungry you can have this or that" so I'd ask, "would you like broccoli or carrots?" "ranch dressing with that or Italian?" It was hard, but it was doable bc they could see there were no other options. They learned decently quickly to eat when they were hungry because there was no point in arguing, begging, crying, or screaming. And they learned to like healthy food. Eating junk became the exception not the norm. The change in lifestyle also made me the "cool" mom one day a year. Because since we ate healthy as a rule, my new rule was on your birthday you can have whatever you want all day. So the tradition became ice cream for breakfast. Most parents would cringe at this, but I had no need to fight that battle when they ate healthy 95% of the time. It was fun to watch them go to school and tell their friends on their birthday how they got ice cream for breakfast. It was a win-win for all of us and in life.
It was tough long journey along the way. But it was SO worth it.
What happened in the budget (I share this because financially everyone struggles when starting this journey) was that in the beginning it was more expensive. But as we stayed the course, stayed the commitment, we got healthier. Dr. visits decreased. Prescriptions decreased. Supplements even decreased over time. As we get healthier we can depend on less, even in supplement form. We spend 1/4 now of what we used to spend when we were sick. And it is totally worth the added expense in the food budget because food is our main medicine. I can guarantee you one thing. You WILL pay for your health. But let me empower you. You have a choice how you pay for it. Either in lack of energy, and junk food - eating out or in drive-thrus fast paced too tired to keep up with the life you dream of, or in investing in yourself and your family through the many natural health options and better food to actually fuel and refuel your true potential.
And as I mentioned I now have two healthy kids who are my total joy! Watching their full and happy and healthy life is so worth every penny and struggle we had to get here.
I always tell people, even with spina bifida, I wouldn't be alive without modern medical care. But I wouldn't be as healthy and active as I have been able to be without holistic care. BioEnergetic Assessments are key because it helps me see right away where the imbalances are and what I need to do to bring my body back in to balance as much as possible.
If you are worried or hesitant about this journey into a total lifestyle change. The commitment level. The cost, financially. emotionally. Socially. Let me just encourage you. It is one of the best commitments you will ever make. Don't waste another day. Dive in. All in. LIFE. Abundant, full, happy, healthy life, awaits.
This journey has led me to my passion. I am now a practicing Holistic Healthcare Practitioner specializing in BioEnergetic Assessments. If you need help on your journey, if you are ready to make a change, I'd love to help! There is hope!